I don’t post on this old abandoned blog much because- ha! what’s the point. But sometimes I read something that makes me want to say something. Or maybe I dream something. And I don’t say anything because I am speaking to a world that doesn’t listen. A world that has too many things being thrown at them constantly. And who am I, anyway? Nobody. And I’ve never really even wanted to be anybody. I just don’t give a shit about much. Especially being someone “important”. Ugh.
But I have to tell you a few things, you with no ears. Things I read. Something I read today, as a matter of fact.
Now, before I begin, I just want to say that there are those of us who love. Who love is poured out through. They call us empaths, but that’s a now stupid word and a stupid concept because everyone clamors to be labeled as a thinking, feeling, loving person even when it is not so. They wear the title like a badge, and they hide behind it. They hide who and what they really are. It’s gross.
And the thing about loving someone is that it can be perceived as a weakness. I disagree. I believe that sometimes love is an assignment. It’s something we are supposed to do, a task given by God to demonstrate his relentless love. Narcissists take great advantage of this. They suppose that it is their cleverness, might, or beauty that enslaves one to love them. They are mistaken. What I believe is that it is God’s demonstration of his power to love even the least worthy. God goes to the ends of the earth to show his love, even for those who despise him. It’s like the Bible verse that talks about how God made the heavens, the stars in the sky, the earth, animals…everything. And seeing all this, man is without excuse. There is no excuse for not believing in a God you cannot see when you can see everything he has made. And likewise, there is no excuse for not believing in that same God when you are an intimate witness to the love that is poured out for you through another human being. Such grace. Such kindness. A narcissist takes this for granted and believes it is by his doing. He is mistaken.
Because God will, in time, revoke that grace. Once it has been fully demonstrated that even his love cannot change a soul that wants to see through its own failing eyes, that part of the story ends. The love leaves and the narcissist is left, for the rest of his/her life without love. The rest is just a joke. A ceaseless game of win or lose. Empty. Oh, they can find other games, but they will never find love once love knows it cannot heal. There is other work for love to do somewhere else.
Jeremiah 51:9 says “We tried to heal Babylon, but she could not be healed. Abandon her!”Love tries to heal the narcissist. It’s not arrogant love. It’s not that we think OUR love is so strong and good that it can save. But the love that comes through us is powerful. It is not our own. That love can save. Sometimes. But I think sometimes, that love is legal evidence, used in the judgment chambers of God as evidence against a soul who is in opposition to God and all that God is (which is love itself). If you reject love, you will be rejected by love. God demonstrated his love by sending his son. He still demonstrates his love by sending his love for us through others. And when the one who loves realizes that their Babylon cannot be healed, it’s time to go. The story is over.
the sacred mind 